Sunday, March 07, 2004

ok.
i've shitfted to ma v.cool new blog.
click here to go dere.
kayyy at 2:41 PM

squeezed, dried. i've nothing left on me. except your love.


ok.
i'm a happy girl.
spent like more den 4hrs on da stupid thg u are lookin at rite now.
i've removed da password thg.
bud if DAT happens again,
imma put it back immediately.

hmms.
i'm still not very satisfied with it.
shall continue tmr.
i'm tired.
oh well.

honey rocks.

okies.
off to bed now.
love all of you guys.

//and i'll love you, like dere's no tmr.

kayyy at 1:31 AM

Friday, March 05, 2004

woohoo.
movie later with baby, kor and sh.

and guys,
PLS PLS PLS DO NOT watch acacia.
it sucks big time.
a waste of time and marney.

and guess wad?
yesterday was da most screw-ed up day of my life.

kayyy at 2:43 PM

Thursday, March 04, 2004

i'm invisible.


no one sees these wounds.
whether is it physical or emotional.
everyone's just asking me the same thing over and over again.
but no one really cares bout what i really want.

go ahead girls.
push me around like a ball.
no one's telling me what they want,
and they expect me to know by myself.

come on.
i'm oreadi tired enuff.
i dont think i'll have to time to GUESS what you guys want.
is it that hard?
just to open your mouth and tell me?
say it into my face.
i'm not afraid of what you hide.

yeah right.
i had enuff.
i've made ma choice.
i know what i want.
just gimmi time to chill first ok?

//its the end. game over.
kayyy at 10:56 AM

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

the feelings deep down inside remained untouched and fresh.

right.
no one will ever understand how i feel.
this is just so pathetic.
having to face this crap everyday.

is it so hard?
for you to just be understanding for a single moment?
its all about you isnt it?
dere aint me.

i feel totally submerged.
time and time again i lost ma pride for you.
ma dignity.
those i once hold on so dear to.

i know its hard to appreciate someone for who dey reali are.
and i know iam ugly deep down inside.
i wldnt expect you to love me for who i am.
bud i just hope you can appreciate me everytime i lay down ma pride for you.

true,
pride and dignity is worthless when you love someone.
and i agree too.
i don't mind putting dem down if i find it all worth da effort.

i've never doubted your love for me.
i know every single bit is true.
and this applies too,
for ma love for you.

and just like you,
i find tears so easily to well nowadays.
i feel so vulnerable to the things you say.
every single word from you is able to crush me.
totally.

bud anw,
nuff said.
i just hope dat thgs will ged betta day by day.

//when the Sun doenst shine.

kayyy at 11:42 PM

Every single cell in me, is aching for a fight.


new template.
bud i dont like it.
imperfect.
oh well,
spare me.
ma brains cell are like half dead.

and you know what?
i think i can die if this were to go on for everyday.
and everyday,
i have to go thru this over and over again.
if it isnt killing you,
it IS killing me.

didnt we agree to compromise?
didnt we agree not to be jealous anymore?
i know,
jealousy kills.
well,
dere's nth i can do bout it either.
i kept explaining everyday.
i feel like iam turning into a parrot.

tell me,
this is only going to ged betta.
and i hope,
tmr will be a betta day for us.

//i cant see me without you**

kayyy at 10:33 PM

Say It Isnt So - Gareth Gates

Skies are dark
It's time for rain
Final call, you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterday
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow
How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore

Chorus:
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Tempt to find but at least we've tried
We're still alive with hopes this time
As they closed the door behind you
We're so alone and time stands still
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
as I wish I'd never found you
Wohoh
How can I be smiling when you go
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Chorus

Miles, miles to go
Before I can sail
Before I can nail my love for you to sleep
Oh darling
I get miles, miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear me laugh again

Chorus

kayyy at 10:21 PM

Monday, March 01, 2004

hmmms.
heard u cry over da fone ytd..
its scares me like farke.
realised how much i mean to you,
and how much u actualli love me.
i regretted for da thgs i've done to make you cry.
pls,
dont cry anymore.
it hurts me till da deepest region of ma heart.

//if realise, i don't wanna let go.
kayyy at 4:34 PM

hurs.
went sentosa ytd.
had a great time.
bud i shant tok bout wad happened aft dat.
its over and shall not happed agn.

and YOU.
pls dont scare me like dat anymore ok.
i've a weak heart.
i cant tk dis kinda frights.

now everythg's back to normal agn.
no one's killing demselves.
no one's dying.
no one's gg anywhr to look for anyone.

phew.
iam so glad everythg's ok now.

//sunshine after thunderstorm


kayyy at 4:26 PM