Sunday, March 07, 2004

ok.
i've shitfted to ma v.cool new blog.
click here to go dere.
kayyy at 2:41 PM

squeezed, dried. i've nothing left on me. except your love.


ok.
i'm a happy girl.
spent like more den 4hrs on da stupid thg u are lookin at rite now.
i've removed da password thg.
bud if DAT happens again,
imma put it back immediately.

hmms.
i'm still not very satisfied with it.
shall continue tmr.
i'm tired.
oh well.

honey rocks.

okies.
off to bed now.
love all of you guys.

//and i'll love you, like dere's no tmr.

kayyy at 1:31 AM

Friday, March 05, 2004

woohoo.
movie later with baby, kor and sh.

and guys,
PLS PLS PLS DO NOT watch acacia.
it sucks big time.
a waste of time and marney.

and guess wad?
yesterday was da most screw-ed up day of my life.

kayyy at 2:43 PM

Thursday, March 04, 2004

i'm invisible.


no one sees these wounds.
whether is it physical or emotional.
everyone's just asking me the same thing over and over again.
but no one really cares bout what i really want.

go ahead girls.
push me around like a ball.
no one's telling me what they want,
and they expect me to know by myself.

come on.
i'm oreadi tired enuff.
i dont think i'll have to time to GUESS what you guys want.
is it that hard?
just to open your mouth and tell me?
say it into my face.
i'm not afraid of what you hide.

yeah right.
i had enuff.
i've made ma choice.
i know what i want.
just gimmi time to chill first ok?

//its the end. game over.
kayyy at 10:56 AM

Wednesday, March 03, 2004

the feelings deep down inside remained untouched and fresh.

right.
no one will ever understand how i feel.
this is just so pathetic.
having to face this crap everyday.

is it so hard?
for you to just be understanding for a single moment?
its all about you isnt it?
dere aint me.

i feel totally submerged.
time and time again i lost ma pride for you.
ma dignity.
those i once hold on so dear to.

i know its hard to appreciate someone for who dey reali are.
and i know iam ugly deep down inside.
i wldnt expect you to love me for who i am.
bud i just hope you can appreciate me everytime i lay down ma pride for you.

true,
pride and dignity is worthless when you love someone.
and i agree too.
i don't mind putting dem down if i find it all worth da effort.

i've never doubted your love for me.
i know every single bit is true.
and this applies too,
for ma love for you.

and just like you,
i find tears so easily to well nowadays.
i feel so vulnerable to the things you say.
every single word from you is able to crush me.
totally.

bud anw,
nuff said.
i just hope dat thgs will ged betta day by day.

//when the Sun doenst shine.

kayyy at 11:42 PM

Every single cell in me, is aching for a fight.


new template.
bud i dont like it.
imperfect.
oh well,
spare me.
ma brains cell are like half dead.

and you know what?
i think i can die if this were to go on for everyday.
and everyday,
i have to go thru this over and over again.
if it isnt killing you,
it IS killing me.

didnt we agree to compromise?
didnt we agree not to be jealous anymore?
i know,
jealousy kills.
well,
dere's nth i can do bout it either.
i kept explaining everyday.
i feel like iam turning into a parrot.

tell me,
this is only going to ged betta.
and i hope,
tmr will be a betta day for us.

//i cant see me without you**

kayyy at 10:33 PM

Say It Isnt So - Gareth Gates

Skies are dark
It's time for rain
Final call, you board the train
Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterday
Wipe the tears you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow
How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore

Chorus:
Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know
I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Tempt to find but at least we've tried
We're still alive with hopes this time
As they closed the door behind you
We're so alone and time stands still
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
as I wish I'd never found you
Wohoh
How can I be smiling when you go
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Chorus

Miles, miles to go
Before I can sail
Before I can nail my love for you to sleep
Oh darling
I get miles, miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear me laugh again

Chorus

kayyy at 10:21 PM

Monday, March 01, 2004

hmmms.
heard u cry over da fone ytd..
its scares me like farke.
realised how much i mean to you,
and how much u actualli love me.
i regretted for da thgs i've done to make you cry.
pls,
dont cry anymore.
it hurts me till da deepest region of ma heart.

//if realise, i don't wanna let go.
kayyy at 4:34 PM

hurs.
went sentosa ytd.
had a great time.
bud i shant tok bout wad happened aft dat.
its over and shall not happed agn.

and YOU.
pls dont scare me like dat anymore ok.
i've a weak heart.
i cant tk dis kinda frights.

now everythg's back to normal agn.
no one's killing demselves.
no one's dying.
no one's gg anywhr to look for anyone.

phew.
iam so glad everythg's ok now.

//sunshine after thunderstorm


kayyy at 4:26 PM

Saturday, February 28, 2004

wooohoo~
iam so prouda maself.
i successfully password-ed ma blog!
HAH HAH HAH.
now those morons cant tag me anymore~
wheee~

and those who got da password,
you guys know i love you ok?
muahhhs!

//you guys form da pillar dat supports ma life.
kayyy at 7:47 PM

hey peeps.
how did u guys do for O's?
tagg me ur results ok?
=))
and well,
i didnt reali do VERY good.
bud at least i can go wherever i want to.

and to dat moron who kept invading ma tag,
pls ged a life.
you're not pissing me off.
you're just plainly displaying ur childishness.
and apparently you are still imbecile.
i wont say much.
just hope you will grow up one day.

//calling you a retard wld be a plain insult to retards.
kayyy at 2:57 PM

things have been pretty messy these few days.
its more then i can handle.

i can sense ur change.
its not you anymore.
you frightened me pretty badly today.
please don't do that anymore.
ma heart can't take this.

i hope things will turn out for da betta.
as in,
things between me and you.
lets work for da betta.
lets face da odds together.

//a few more steps to eternity.
kayyy at 2:44 PM

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

ok.
iam bloody.
tskkk.
and da worst thg is..
i ran outta pads.
stupid or stupid.


gonna ged cranky dis few days..
so peeps,
pls bear with it ok?
it'll be over SOON.

chelvi called todae.
ma junior.
tell me,
how sweet is dat.
awww~
she wans to see me on fri.
in sch.
well,
i shall see u dere den chel~
(she doesnt read ma blog. iam being redundant here.)

hmms.
and no one has contacts to YUNNAM?
sighhs.
iam serious you noe!!
and i wan ma OXY1000 pls.

pouts**
iam in bad mood dis few days.
not very.... good.
prolly cos of ma mense.
or isit becos of YOU!
uhhhh. yes YOU.
u stupid piece of shit.
cant stop making me jealous for one day cant you?
tskkkkk.
i had nuff arhs i tell you.
if u make me reali mad,
i'll snap awayy all ur hair!
ALL.
YES. I MEAN IT.

hee~
poooooooooooooo~
iam so boredd.
wad if i flung everythg?
hurs.
imma so dead.
lets all pray for kayson to ged good results ok?
*mumbles mumbles mumbles*
ok! done.
wheee~

//i feel like a superstar, NOT.
kayyy at 8:14 PM

golly.
imma go mad soon.
and ma hair.
its running thin.
like...
i've been pulling dem so often nowadays.

anyone has contacts to YUNNAM HAIRCARE?
intro me in pls.
and i hv TB too.
kept coughin da whole day.
oh my giraffes.

iam sooooo sick.
down with thin hair and TB and breast cancer.
hah.
imma die soon.

and iam easily slpy nowadays.
yawns**
shall log out and slp.
i cant tk it animore.

and hair,
pls grow.
i wanna cut u soon.

//hair running thin. so is ma patience.
kayyy at 2:02 AM

oh.
i feel like throwing maself outta da window pls?
ok. tell me.
how worst can dis ged.

iam so tired of it.
is dis gg to go on forever?

oh baby.
give me a break.

stop "ma-bitchin".
it doesnt mean dat u need to hv one when i got one.
wads ur problem?
iam so sick and tired of dis.
u are putting us on a thin line.
dont mk me snap it. dont.

pls.
lets try to make thgs betta.
we cant go on like dat can we?
compromise pls.
make us strong.

//its running thin.
kayyy at 1:44 AM

Tuesday, February 24, 2004

arggghhhh.
i swear dis pimple on ma face is killing me.
or pimpleS.
TSK.

guess am hving ma menses soon.
LOL.
pad anione?
wahahha.

anyway..
i've been staying at home for da past few days.
shall go town todae and update maself.
hee~
and i hope i can see those i love and miss too!
like you noe... nai, pui, lex, qiao.. etc etc.
haha.
and i shall drop by yoshinoya to visit maye too.
whee~

and baby..
i miss you..
i noe work's been hard on you..
bud u hv to be brave ok?
u noe iam alwaes here to back you up~
muahhhs~
hugs!
see you soon girl.
iam missing you.

//falling in love all over again with you.


kayyy at 10:29 AM

Monday, February 23, 2004

wadever attitude u are giving me,
imma tk it all in.
i shall lay down ma pride to see a smile of urs.

//say it isnt so.
kayyy at 10:23 AM

Sunday, February 22, 2004

boobooboo!
iam so bored.
dis online and staring-at-ma-comp thg is killing me.

and did i told cha guys?
i got a NEW fone!
haha.

so great.
i bet i look oh-so-cool flipping open ma fone.
haha.

and ma next target's a new walletie!
pple who loves me out dere,
HINT HINT HINT!

buahahaha.
and i've found a new laffter!
*points up*
and hello?
dis is copyright ok?
i can SUE you if you copy!
*grins*

and yah.
ma mom bought dis menacing machine.
it scares me.
i hope it explodes soon.
*nodds*
dats wad me and mb thinks.
rite mb?
hee.

uhhh.
iam gedding outta here.
dead bored.
imma play with me yore-ee and ma fone.
wheeeeeee~

//no kiss no sex no nth. jus plain loving you for wad you are.
kayyy at 4:15 PM

acks!
iam sooooo happie todae!
cos i got maself a new hp!
samsung X430.
sounds cool har?
lastest model lerhs~
LOL.

it cost 522 aft 5% gst.
haha.
i had to pay half for it.
good bargain thou.
bud poor mummy.
hmmms.
broke agn all of a sudden har!

and we quarelled todae.
stupid mummy.
lazy to explain,
bud imma wake up 7am in da morning to mk breakfast tmr for da whole family.
heee.
amendments.
wooo~
and its like 1:44 now.
iam dead beat.

shall stop here.
will update agn tmr bout da whole week's happening.
iam outta here!

and i miss you baby!
god knows how much i love ya!
muacks!
tk care ok?
love ya lotsa.
*hugs

//imma glue maself onto you**
kayyy at 1:50 AM